wide awake in the middle of the night and i don’t really understand why
relaxed, alert, too much energy and nothing specific to do
hardly a bad thing
finding there are more hours in the day to fill lately
despite being more productive than ever
more or less
is this why people have jobs
something to fill the hours between sleep with activity so as to avoid thought
it used to scare me when people said they didn’t know what to do with themselves when they weren’t at work
it still does, to tell the truth
but i begin to understand a little
full as my leisure time is
maybe this is what is meant by balance
something missing
a core of mindlessness
yes
that could be it
something for the body to do
an occupation
the mind, well, it does its thing
hard to shut off, hard to direct in useful ways
the heart runs riot and cannot be trusted
the body, well, dependable
solid, plodding
takes its time getting things done
more of that then
i could go and clean the flat
nah
not yet that desperate, though it keeps coming up
something that needs doing
perhaps it is time to build a new dream machine

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  1.   bruce
    May 21st, 2007 | 1:41 am

    Consider doing Tai Chi at such times. Just a thought 🙂