Note from afar 2

Heartbreaking and disconcerting to be begged in quite extreme fashion by a man 20 years my senior after spending the evening in his home.

A culture of charming, skilled and sincere conmen and liars, masking the genuine. But, in poverty, would I act differently?

Frustrating that precisely the bizarre and unjustifiable global economic voodoo that allows me to be here also makes it impossible to be here just as a man and not some alien fruit machine that dispenses money if you touch it right.

Am nowhere close to done processing what poverty and privilege mean.

I am not entirely sure what I am doing here, in this necessary process of self-alchemy, but it is not a holiday, and I am not a tourist. I do not want to see sights and buy things. I want to experience and understand, and …  something.

Oh, and the desert is indeed hot like whoa, and incredibly peaceful.

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The above was written a week ago. In this carnival of contradictions, I next met one of the simplest, honest and good men I have known. Staying with him in his house of mud was deeply profound.

Blog updates via phone are slow going. Something more substantial may appear if I get some keyboard time.

4 Responses to “Note from afar 2”

  1.   bruce
    June 27th, 2011 | 6:52 am

    onya…

  2.   michael
    June 28th, 2011 | 10:48 am

    Yeah keep on with the updates!

    I’d be pretty alarmed if you thought you were near “done processing what poverty and privilege mean” after a couple of weeks in one country outside your own. 🙂

  3.   Rich
    July 11th, 2011 | 7:49 pm

    “I am not entirely sure what I am doing here, in this necessary process of self-alchemy, but it is not a holiday, and I am not a tourist. I do not want to see sights and buy things. I want to experience and understand, and … something.”

    C’mon man, don’t take it quite so seriously. There’s nothing wrong with seeing sights or whatever. You’re only cheating yourself if you discount a potential experience because of some high-minded ideal. Travel is awesome, just let it happen.

  4. July 25th, 2011 | 2:09 pm

    “alien fruit machine” — epic image!

    Can’t save the world, but you can save your world